Date of Submission

Fall 2018

Academic Programs and Concentrations

Studio Arts

Project Advisor 1

Adriane Colburn

Abstract/Artist's Statement

DYING IN THE CLOSET (Part 22 of 29)

I am transgender. I don’t exactly look the part so you’re just going to have to take my word for it. This project is based on 1) my experience growing up as a closeted Asian American with parents who just so happen to be part of a pseudo Christian cult from Korea that compares gay people to “dirty dung eating dogs” and 2) dealing with the fact that I will probably not be able to transition for a very (very) long time for reasons you can probably figure out by now. I have no intention of showing my family anything from this show. Everything here stays between you, me, and the BARD FUND FOR VISUAL LEARNING THAT PROVIDES MATERIAL SUPPORT TO STUDENTS IN NEED SO THAT THEY MIGHT ACHIEVE STUDIO ART WORK OF QUALITY AND AMBITION which will probably post pictures on their website because that’s what I signed up for but my parents aren’t very tech savvy so it should be fine I think. More than anything if this project becomes the last memory any of you have of me I would be pretty ok with that. I don’t really believe in an afterlife anymore so if this is the one chance I get I’d rather not have it end with a penis intact.

In case you couldn’t guess from the title let me be crystal clear: if I haven’t transitioned by the time I turn 30 I will almost certainly be dead. No amount of therapy, talking it out with friends, forcing me into a hospital, unsolicited life advice about how things will get better soon (eventually) maybe (hopefully) is enough anymore. I’ve lost too much time I am never getting back. This is not a cry for help. This is not advice for others in similar situations. This is not the start of something new. This is a warning. I am not the first and I will not be the last.

Open Access Agreement

On-Campus only

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